Keep staring at you, I don't know why.
I shy away from you, I don't know why.
Think about you all day long, I don't know why.
Dream about you all the night, I don't know why.
I want to be dead, I don't know why.
I want to be alive, I don't know why.
.............this poem is somewhere in my head. Missing parts, I forgot to note down. Will complete when I remember it (or feel it again).